Things i miss

The one thing that i always looked forward to all my life was "independence".. Since my parents for most of my life have been strict.. Monitoring my every move, keeping a track of all my activities.. I had nick named my Dad as CID since he used to always be so suspicious of all my activities.. So i just waited for the time when I would move away from home.. I prayed to God to give me a job that took me far away from home.. And I've always believed that if you wish for something with all your heart, you often end up getting it.. Its happened with me quite a lot.. so just as i had wished i got a job that took me away from home..

And then i landed up in Bangalore for work.. Freedom at last! that was my first reaction.. No more nagging, no more policing from my parents and no more fighting with my brother.. I had a job, was independent and no one could question me.. What a feeling that is!

Initially, on weekends i would just have breakfast and leave my PG and simply wander around the city.. visit shopping malls or some areas for shopping.. no one in my PG knew where i was.. that was the freedom i was looking forward to.. no need to answer/inform anyone about my whereabouts..

And i had a nice time.. used to enjoy this new found space or rather solitude..And its more than a year since i found my "Independence" and today there are so many things that I miss.. I miss Mummy Ka Banaya Hua Khana.. the dishes that i used to create such a fuss to eat, are the ones i miss today.. I miss being woken up on Sunday Mornings by my Dad who would shout at me for having overslept.. i miss being pampered by my Mom.. everytime i was sick she would immediately take me to the Doctor for a check up.. In Bangalore its a different story.. i fall sick, i need to look after myself coz no one else will..

I miss fighting for the TV with my brother.. Miss his rather mean comments about my appearance.. I miss my Dad Questioning me why i came home late.. I miss him 'hitting the roof' coz i dint clear a Banking exam that i took recently.. I miss being shouted at, miss being nagged.. I miss my home a lot..

U know staying away from home teaches u alot.. and the Independence that we get once we're away comes with what we call "Responsibility"... i"m independent, but i'm responsible.. I'm responsible for myself, I'm answerable to myself.. so while i have no one to question me while i'm away from home i still make it a point to keep my parents aware of whatever i'm doing, who i'm meeting, what i'm doing over the weekend.. i make it a point to come back to my PG as soon as possible, despite knowing that it wont matter to the ppl around whether i come early or not...i make it a point to never neglect my health...

Its a great life.. I'm enjoying every bit of it.. ppl tel me its a phase i should enjoy it while it lasts.. so i am.. but at any point of time if i had a choice i would love to trade my "Independence" to get back those things that i miss....

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  1. PatrickJanuary 3, 2010 at 9:59 AM

    Am savouring the memories of the days-like washing your butt,taking you to school on the motorbike,taking you out for aride,your demands of more than one cola.The day you won the first prize playing the flute-your singing at 9th paradela nite at don bosco hall.Taking you to tyco,for your training.and ten the thrill of you taking ajob at vijaya bank-Thank you baba for all these and many more--love you always

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  2. UnknownJanuary 4, 2010 at 8:37 AM

    lovely post:)... staying away from home teach you a lot ..biggest lesson would be the value of home itself,
    luv, sharika

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