Motherhood - What's fun and what's not :)

Its 3:00 A.M.. My little one (LO) is awake and cried just loud enough to awaken me from my sleep.. Checked to see if she's wet her clothes.. Yup! that's the reason she's uncomfortable.. so I carry her out of her cradle, change her clothes and then try to feed her.. she falls asleep in sometime.. so I wipe her face clean, pick her up slowly , and very stealthily place her in her cradle and just when I lie down on my bed, much to my dismay I find LO is awake and staring at me wide eyed.. Gotcha! is what her look says.. so I groan and pick her up again, try to feed her again and she falls asleep again and I try to place her in her cradle as stealthily as possible and she's awake just as I lie down on my bed - AGAIN.. We continue this pick up and drop game that my LO is enjoying so much till about 3:45 A.M, .. I'm almost in tears, begging her "Please baby, its 3:45 in the morning.. Please go to sleep".. I see the twinkle in her eyes which translates to "Tough luck mom! I'm not sleepy, so entertain me".. at 4:15 A.M LO is still not asleep and I have reached my threshold patience level.. I glare at her and tell her in a stern voice that I've had enough and its high time she went to sleep.. LO catches the irritation in my voice and stars crying loud enough to awaken the whole household.. Grandparents rush to her rescue and I have been told not to scold MY daughter.. Well, the new grandparents have completely forgotten how stern they were as parents.. anyway at 5:00 A.M LO is finally asleep and I lie down on my bed just to realise that my sleep has vanished.. All I can do is toss and turn till I fall asleep again only to be awakened by LO at 6.00 A.M.. Come morning and my dad comes around to look at his granddaughter.. he's praising her saying what a nice baby she is since she sleeps through the night.. I give him a cold stare.. he gets the hint and drops the topic turning his attention to his granddaughter who is curiously looking at him..

This is the fun part of being a mom.. You get to see your LO's antics, some amusing some others not so much depending on what time of the day it is.. Like the other day we went to visit my gynecologist.. so while waiting for my turn, the receptionist was trying to play with LO.. My baby doll has already started displaying shyness, so the minute the receptionist spoke to her, LO tried to hide her face with her hand which is so tiny it could cover just one of her eyes.. When the receptionist would not give up, LO turned her face towards me and fell asleep.. I narrated this to my dad who was so amused and we all ended up laughing..

It is a great joy - motherhood.. you get to love someone and someone who loves you unconditionally.. it gives me a high looking at my daughter.. how she looks at me, how her eyes follow my every move, and how nothing can comfort her except being in my arms.. It is also challenging and scary - the same joy of motherhood.. I couldn't hold back tears when my baby had fever.. it scared me to death, the first time she had hiccups and I couldn't hold back my tears again when she was given her BCG vaccination... guess I cried more than her..

I have a lot of dreams for my baby.. that she will grow up to be a good human being, someone people love and speak well of.. I hope she has my husband's determination, perseverance and hardworking nature and my confidence, wit and humour.. I'm sure my husband hopes she is into athletics just like him.. while I wish she turns out to be a dancer.. So many dreams for a baby who's just 22 days old as I write this.. I just hope she's always blessed with good health, and surrounded by enough people who will love and support her.. I hope I can be a good mom and never let her down..

In the meantime I will savor each moment of these days when my LO is growing up.. I keep telling my LO everyday not to grow up, to remain as small as she is now - forever.. :) Of course its not possible.. So let me enjoy this moment, kyunki zindagi na milegi dobara :)